Saturday, October 30, 2010

Saturday

As I posted in the previous blog, here is a picture of Jordan and I dressed in our Halloween costumes at the airport to pick up Uncle Toni. Yes, he was surprised to see us!

This morning our day started in a very unexpected way. I was asleep upstairs with Jordan. Colten was in the backyard. I heard a blood-curdling scream, jumped out of bed, flew down the stairs and found Toni, flat on his back on our deck. He had slipped and fallen. He was in excruciating pain, his knee was swollen, and he couldn’t move. We called 911. The EMTs arrived, assessed him, and off to the hospital they went, suspecting he had a dislocated knee or possibly a break. Yikes. Not how I thought our day would go. Colten followed the ambulance, and I stayed back to watch the dogs. I had a long phone call with Kate, my best friend and Jordan’s godmother. It was wonderful, I cried a lot, but it felt good. I tried to do some chores as I received 30 minute text updates from the hospital. Our dear friend Barbara Carrellas arrived from New York City. I felt grateful to see her and just have someone acknowledge how crazy everything was. Then the FedEx man and the postal carrier arrived with two packages—a gorgeous bouquet of sunflowers from our friend Davis and a box of treats from Amelie. Two wonderful surprises! About an hour later, Colten returned with Toni in a knee brace and on crutches. Nothing is broken, luckily. A follow up with an orthopedic surgeon and an MRI will give us more information. We installed Toni on the couch and ate a late lunch. Jordan got to have ice cream (Frosty Paws ice cream for dogs) for dessert after dinner.

We had a call with Laura the animal communicator, and all four of us—me, Colten, Toni, and Barbara—were on the line. Jordan said she felt lighter, and she felt like she was sometimes not in her body. We wanted Laura to explain to Jordan what is going to happen tomorrow. Barbara has prepared a ritual for us to help Jordan cross over, and we’ve made an appointment with our vet to come to the house to assist Barbara. Tomorrow is a day with a lot of meaning. It’s Halloween. It is the Pagan holiday of Samhain (the Pagan New Year), which celebrates the end of the lighter half of the year and the beginning of the darker half of the year. Pagans believe that on Samhain the border between this world and the other world is the most thin, allowing spirits to easily pass through. It is my late father’s birthday (I know, I am the daughter of a man born on Halloween, go figure). It is also my Daddy’s birthday.

The call was wonderful. Jordan told Laura that Barbara brought magic with her. Barbara got to ask for her input in the ritual. Jordan reiterated that she was ready to go and felt a combination of deep sadness that she was leaving us and intense happiness at the life she has lived and the love that she feels around her. She said, “Mom, I am not going to leave you. It feels like it, but I am not going to. I promise mom. I feel happy I have a little bit of time left. I’m going to really enjoy it. I love you mom and dad. I love you.”

We all sat on the living room couch and Colten hooked up his laptop to the television. We watched a slide show Colten put together of hundreds of photos of Jordan. We told stories about the pictures and reminisced about all the amazing things we’ve done with her. We plan to put the slide show up on the blog this coming week. It’s really amazing. Not sure if we will blog tomorrow, but please check back for the slide show this coming week. Thank you all so much for your love and support. Your emails and comments are such a comfort to us and we are grateful for each one. If you’re awake tomorrow morning (East Coast time), please keep us all in your prayers and wish Jordan a smooth, positive transition.

18 comments:

  1. Sending you so much love. I'm so glad you're able to take the time to spend with Jordan to make sure this transition is the best possible for all involved. I never got that with Athena, Ava or Friendly, and I'm so glad that you've had such a few great months together towards the end. My heart goes out to all of you, and I wish send you all healing wishes for tomorrow.

    -Shanna

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  2. all my love and kibbles xoxoox

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  3. You will all be in my thoughts tomorrow morning. I have 2 kitty girls waiting for Jordan on the other side.

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  4. Sending love and warmest thoughts to you all. Jordan, best wishes for a peaceful transition. You've clearly brought so much joy to your whole family, what a gift you have given.

    Love,

    lauren

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  5. My heart goes out to all of you. Sending love and light-

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  6. Letting go of a family member is so hard. I wish you much love and peace.

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  7. Sending love to all of you and thanks for sharing what you're going through. Wishing Jordan peace. And those bumblebee costumes - so, so adorable (both of them!).

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  8. somehow ended up here. I can't tell you how grateful I am to have stumbled here. (Um, not Toni stumbling, mind you...)

    so much love and doggie love and you all are the new band Jordan and The Cross Over Helpers

    love Felice

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  9. Saying goodbye is the hardest part of loving them. Sending so much love from our family to yours... hoping for a smooth transition that brings peace to you all.

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  10. Bright blessings to you and to your family. Have called upon the spirits of all my Bostons (and other dogs) to meet Jordan on the other side. May her transition be smooth and peaceful. And may you all bask in the joy she's brought to your lives.

    And extra healing energy to Toni.

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  11. Joining the others in wishing you love and strength in this difficult time. I don't think I've ever seen two cuter bumble bees. So great all that you're doing to make Jordan's journey loving and peaceful.

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  12. Much love to you all. Take some time to really feel all of these emotions. Prayers for peace and comfort your way. I sent my best friend Nigel onto the rainbow bridge about 4 years ago and reading your blog brings back tears. Now I have Zelda, my "pocket pug." We both wish you comfort. Read the rainbow bridge poem when you are ready. The notion that our pets aremade whole again, with no illness or pain, and play happily until we join them-it helped me. Don't question yourself. You have done the right thing.

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  13. I could not help but tear up reading this. I hope you and your family shared all of the emotion of this day and that Jordan felt wrapped in your love. Wishing you comfort and peace.

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  14. Pushing love and energy toward her and you all. Praying for her easy travels. God bless her, God bless you.

    Love and healing to Toni too!

    I am with you today.

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  15. Grieving with you my friends. And celebrating the amazing precious Jordan who is one of my teachers. All my love.

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  16. Love to all of you. Samhain is a perfect day to go to the next world. I can't imagine a better day. May you feel the love surrounding and supporting you.

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  17. Our love and sympathy for your loss of beloved Jordan. You were truly blessed by her presence in your lives, as she was blessed to have you.

    With love,
    Selina

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